Jannie Lynn's Blog (7)

I know it might sound strange but I simply have to leave and face the things in my past. I can't run any more and this time is the last for me. No longer will I be going back as the person I once was because that is impossible on so many levels. Instead I am going back to where it all began the Town, the home, the past family that no longer accepts me I am going to face each and every one of them to let them know that I still care and that even if they don't feel good about this I certainly do.… Continue

Here we go again! Welcome back to all the great and wonderfull stories I have to share much like a Thousand and one nights from Arabian Nights tales.. I have the stories to share here. Not all of them are going to be about me but for now the first series will be. Primarily because I want to chronicle this transistional time in my life with the whole story from triumps to pitfalls and every thing else. Some days are better than others, living life on a day by day choice, to struggle on. I seek t… Continue

Well I thought I might stay in Michigan for a few days maybe a week but instead I found a job and started a new journey of my life one that had a lot of unknowns. I was able to meet with and even find a place to stay the trans activist Michelle Fox-Phillips. now when I met this woman she appeared small and frail and to be honest a little scarry. But I needed help and she was offering to help me so I took it. Now I have been in Michigain for several months. What I have come to find out is that Mi… Continue

Well feeling like there should be an update here since I have left the state of Indiana for Michigan. It all started out good I had a good job, and then I had a day from heck that I had to make a decision and I made one but as usuall I am making bad choices for my sef and not really thinking about them but rather acting on my feelings about things. My spuse and I had kept in touch untill I moved to Michigan she has since decided to stop communicating with me. I moved to the detroit area after t… Continue

Ok Some thing more recent and I would hope a bit more insight full. I am fast forwarding the story line to the most current time frame that being said here is how life has been as an overall perspective for me. I was stuck with bad dead end jobs working temp jobs part time jobs and then I get a pretty decent job as an optical lab technician, well this job was good and I enjoyed it especially the side projects of making movies for special occassions at work. I definitly found my calling both as a… Continue

I was issolated with no way to tell any one about my inner deepest darkest secret. I could only observe the other girls and desired to be included in their groups and conversations. I did not like being considered a boy and for the first time in my life I had to change for gym. This was one of the hardest thigns for me to get through every time I would wait till tohers had left the room befor I would begin I would slowly untie my shoes, and wait as long as I could to get changed letting all but… Continue

As I gained concisness again it was much darker out side now and I realized I needed help. No one had even notice that I had passed out in the yard, and I was in critical condition. I could not get up my head was dizzy and I was seeing stars for the first time in my life I knew that I was seriously hurt and that I could not handle this on my own I had to get help. I managed to crawl to my door and pushed the door bell, ring ring.. The door opened, and it was my mom, her first words where where h… Continue