Confusion?

[Mandy]

Okay, I'm just trying to figure out what I identify as. I'm a nineteen year old biological female who is usually only attracted to gay men.

Honestly I look up to people that have transitioned, I'm just not sure that it's something I could ever do. I never really thought about being transgendered at all until lately, and I don't really think it's the same thing I'm going through.. because of things I've read. I've read that you just feel like a different person inside. Like you're trapped in a body that's not you, or something?

I mean, I've found myself wishing a lot over the past few years that I had been born a (feminine) gay man.. and I think if I had been I would be truly happy that way. But living my whole life as a female, I do identify with my female self.. I'm actually very feminine, and I like being feminine.. but I've just never been happy as myself? I think, I don't know. I'm just really confused as to how I'm ever going to find someone and be happy if I am only attracted to gay men.

I'm scared, confused, and I don't get myself at all. :/ I guess I'm not even sure what I'm asking anymore, either.

[Maggie Fero]

Maybe you´re not a female or a male? Finding labels is hard...I´m currently sticking with "Genderqueer", which is a wide label covering pretty much everything outside of female or male. Kinda like answering "other" to the question. I don´t know if this is helping at all...Good luck, though...